It seems to be a really long time since my last updating, yes, got a little busy these days, have to prepare my exam, but i think it still needed to keep updating, I do not want to give up in the middle of the age.LOL.

      So many things happend to me, these day, as a matter of fact, not so many, just ive been through quite a tough time, but i am done with that, so it is indeed one thing i can cheer for

      right now, i am at home to prepare my exam, but about 3 weeks ago, i went to the city he is living now, but now i am totally down with him, nothing special, just think i can not do that anymore,he is undeserved at all, and he is not the one i want, so the sooner i quite, the better for me. maybe when u trapped urself in, it is hard for u to find out this, but once u finally calm down, u can tell urself those things, just let it, u got a bigger life, and u have to move on, entangle in some messy things is not right to u, u got to move on, life is continuning, which will never stop the pace for, u got to keep the same pace with it, no matter how great the past means to u, it is just the past. and there is one thing i told myself to keep in mind: there is something that u can never compel, there is something out of ur control, no matter how much ur desires are. there is just no way for u. so at this time, maybe wait, maybe give up, it is up to u. maybe playing by the ear is the best. sometimes, suprise comes to the one who is patient enough, but u would never fancy that. just be patient, and focus on what u r doing now. this is the life. sometims, it is tough, but after that, u will find out that u r more mature, each mistake is a chance for u to learn, to become more mature, this is the experience. i got to learn that.

    Yes,i have to admit that, i was very hurt one month ago, but just two days, i think i recovered quite quickly, now i do not think i can get hurt anymore, last time is cuz i did not have related experience, but now, i think i have now, and i do not think something is important to me like before, i guess ive changed.do not know,maybe it is good,maybe it is not. who knows. the thing is i am more casual than before, and i will be cool later on. I told to my friend yesterday, everytime, we just need to move on and get away without looking back, just be cool to everything, cuz we have to treasure ourselves, someone is not the one we are waiting for, there is no need for us to spend more time on them, just move on, better ones are waiting for us. that is the point, maybe one day, the ones who did not treasure us so wel would find out that they have lost the most important and beautiful things of their lives. I always tell that to my friend. he is such a good guy, but his relationship is not smooth at all. he always keeps looking back, there is no need to do that, sometimes, when we past something, there is no way we can find the same thing in our lives. Or change to another saying: there is no regret thing.once u did ur decision,just keep it, no matter how it works, u do not have to regret, after all,at that moment, it is ur best decision ever according to ur emotion.