I have been feeling like to say something about my job for a long time. But every time when I wanted to start a new article, I was confused at what to talk about.
During the three months’ working in this remote area far from the center of the city, I had not enough experiences to share; they were too common to show to you. But there was one thing I can make sure that sense of responsibility is most important at work.
I wished I were brilliant enough. However, lacking experience and self-confidence made my first month here very tough. I had made many foolish mistakes during the first month. When I got nervous, nonsense burst out from my mouth. I felt ashamed and came through many awakened nights. For many times I wanted to quit, but I kept encouraging myself by saying “Be persistent, and leave only when you succeed!”
I stayed, though I found there many misunderstandings and unfair historical troubles. I just wanted to prove that I could do it!
When the second month came to an end, I inquired the sale manager how did he think of my working ability during the past two months. He replied, “Well, you have, generally speaking, met the need of our company, but still far away from my expectation.” I felt a little disappointed because I think I had done well according to that disordered situation.
I turned out to be very emotional, and was easily affected by the surroundings. In the third month I often felt downhearted, because the job was not challenging at all. In addition, the salary was low and the company was not running very well--There were people leaving every day. Lack of encouragement and recognition contributed to lack of passion to work, as lack of love contributed to lack of passion to live.
Then come to responsibility. Though my feelings changed in different period, I had never left what I should do ignored. In fact, I didn’t feel I was responsible when I was working. I just had the sense that I had to accomplish what others requested me to do. I wanted to help, I wanted to be helpful, and I wanted to fulfill my promise.
Yesterday, my boss who is now in Australia told me on MSN, that the colleagues in Australia Office (also our customer) rated me as the best overseas seller in GZ office for the moment. I was surprised not at this news but that the boss told it to me and encouraged me. Though I know the boss, who is very casually dressing, is easy-going and often jokes with us, I didn’t think he would talk with me like that. And his help in my establishing customers these two days made me feel I was attached importance to. He said, “In fact, the job requires nothing special but responsibility.” “When the company doesn’t response to your suggestion or requirement, tell me!” Suddenly, I had a feeling that I had got a backer, an important and powerful backer. Ha-ha.
I am afraid the plan to leave the company in a short time has to be postponed.
Maybe you would think I am naive, would you?
