I try my best to join every translation contest. It costs me much time on this paper. However, I failed again. I can't get the approval to translate a book. With a little disappointment, I am delighted that I have made a lot of progress, for the ones who get approved seems to not more excel than mine. However, I copy them here to compare them.
I told Selina that I have fallen in love with one man, however, I didn’t know what his feeling for me. However, in her opinion, I love just a feeling that person gives me but not that idiographic person himself. If others can give me such a comfortable feeling, I will love him for the same. To some extent, I agree with her opinion. Because in my mind, I just care about the feelings when we get together, but not how the person is. Love is not because who you are but because who I am when I with you. I always believe that if someone can give me a comfortable and happy feeling just because his character matches with me, and I get a crush on some characteristics in his character, which I think is the mo ……
These days It was always a bad weather. Since spring is coming, it’s always a depressing and sloppy day. The sullen sky, the damp floor, and the dull air make everyone downhearted. The spring mizzle keeps falling as tears falling in my heart. I feltdepressed, rage and dysthymic……
I like writing, and all of my writing is from the bottom of my heart. I write because I want to keep track record of my life and my thought. Therefore, my writing has intimate relationship with my life, my thought and every friend who runs into my life. Almost all the friends who come to my life and my inner world appear on my writing. However, my writing seldom gets attention from my friends. Few friends will know about them. Maybe that’s why I can write everything I want to write. Before I refusedto reveal any of my writing to my familiar persons who are around me, because there are too much inner secret from my heart. I have no courage to anatomy myself before others. If so I will lose the feeling of safety. Gradually I no longer refuse the friends to read my articles. However, I am still inactive to reveal my writing to my friends. If someone find them by himself, pay attention to them and read them silently, I will appreciate him from the bottom of my heart, because that means he cares about me and my life. However, I hate everybody ask me any personal questions about my writing. The questions like “ Who is the boy you mention in your article? Who is your first lover? “ These are so disgustful questions that make you revolt against. The information in my writing is so personal and immanent that it’s unfit to discuss. You can read them silently, and from my writing you will know something about me. You can touch my heart from my writing. You can understand another world about me and you’d better be moved by my writing. However, you can’t ask any questions, althoug ……
For me, this is a new beginning, in the new term of the new year.
During these first two days, I have a good start. Every morning, I get up at a quarter past six and speed up to do washing, and finally make up my face a little, making it look brilliant and fresh. I also still have time to have breakfast in the school dinning hall. To be frank , the porridge offered by the school in the morning is very delicious. Moreover, it’s free for us to enjoy the breakfast. What's more, I get up a little earlier after noon nap. Therefore, I conquer my bad habit of being late for school. This is the most successful thing worth of celebrating.
After a winter’s holiday’s rest, I feel my bone is filled up with fresh blood. I can feel that I am energetic from head to foot. I also feel that I am confident to do my job well. I make up my mind to make every effort to do my job well. Maybe I can get achievement feeling from my job one day. Today afternoon I was writing the teaching plan carefully in the office. Helen said in surprise that I seemed to change a lot. I understood what she meant. At last term, I gave others an impression of carelessness and laziness. However, I also understand that others always evaluate a person by his appearance and behave. Few people can go into your inner world. Nobody knows you than yourself. If I decide to do something, I will insist on it and finally receive a good result. I never believe in others’ opinions about me. I just listen to my ……
For a long time I seldom get together with him. At first I felt very uneasy. Then I felt that I used to it. I seem to forget him gradually. At least, I seldom feel the worry and care for him. I don’t know whether this choice is reasonable or unwise. Sometimes I will think about him, and the enjoyment and happiness when we get together. It’s a pity that I lose them forever. I don’t know whether he notices or cares about it. Maybe I am just one of his good friends, no particular, no special. He has said that he has a lot of good friends, both male and female. So I am just one of them, with nothing special in his life.
The other day Melody said to me that no man will treat you good without purpose. So, does he treat me more spe ……
